I have complicated emotions about India. Technically I enjoy it and I am always pleased to see my close relatives, I always feel a little trapped. When my parents came to the United States they left close friends and family in India. They grew up closely with their extended family. I have no friends there and I was never allowed to wander outside when I was younger. This was not much different from my life in the U.S., but in the U.S. I became free when I started to drive. In India I was never free and even if I am technically allowed outside now, I am too stuck in the mindset of it's too dangerous and I'll get lost to be comfortable doing so. To put it mildly, it is generally unpleasant.
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The biggest reason for me to go to India now is to visit the only grandparent I have left: my mom's mom. I also go there to visit my mom's brother's family. Beyond those four people, there are only a few people I know well enough to personally want to visit and I can probably count the rest of them on two hands. These people are: my mom's two uncles (younger than my grandmother and grandfather), my father's aunts (younger than my grandfather), and the owner of a market stall on the street next to our house who always asks about my brother and myself. There are some others but I am not sure enough about my relation to them to name them.
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